Dear President of Our Company,
My work ethic is superior to not only the sales team that you head up, but I have a better work ethic than you. Therefore, I don't appreciate you trying to school me on work ethic by saying, "_____ I really think we need to focus our energy on putting in orders rather than decorating the office." Before such a remark leaves your superior and condescending lips you might have wanted to check that I am on MY LUNCH decorating YOUR company office, so you avoid looking like a total and complete ass in front of everyone.
Thanks,
Your Employee
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Friday, November 25, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Not Feeling Very Thankful...
Something about spending holidays with my husband's family doesn't feel very...holidayish to me.
The foods aren't my "holiday" favorite foods. When did Kilbasa and Sweet/Sour Cabbage become a part of Thanksgiving? Where are the homemade dinner rolls? Desserts are bought rather than baked?
They brag that their holiday food spread is monstrous, but it looks scarce to me (I come from a large family, so we always have a LOT of dishes.)
The traditions aren't my "holiday" traditions. Is sitting on the couch not talking and staring at the TV normal? Why are we not playing board games and card games? Why isn't anyone laughing and being silly? Why aren't the kids running around playing with each other?
I don't understand the stories or the connections. Heck, I can't even remember all their names. Honestly, it all seems...well...BORING.
Nothing about the process feels like a holiday to me. It feels forced. It feels put-on. I feel like an outcast...an outsider trying to be a part of something that I'm so obviously NOT a part of. I sit around...flipping through magazines, newspapers, and trying to make conversation with people who are obviously more shy and quiet than my own family gatherings. I'd much rather go hide in an empty room in the house by myself till the 'holiday' is over, and we can go home. I understand that this is a 'normal' holiday gathering for my husband, but to me it doesn't feel normal at all.
Will I always feel this way? Will I ever feel like this is a part of my holiday too? It's hard for me to imagine that my own future children's idea and experience of a holiday will be nothing like my own. My own children's holiday foods and traditions will be foreign to me...or will I be acclimated to it all by then?
I don't know. Maybe I'm just being selfish. I just don't feel like my husband feels that out of place when we spend holidays with my family, but maybe he just doesn't tell me that its odd to him. I feel like he fits in better with my family at our events. Whereas I just feel bored and uncomfortable at his events, and I am by no means a shy person. I can start a conversation with anyone, but the whole process at his events just feel forced. Spending time with them feels exhausting, and I have begun to dread it. I have to mentally build myself up to spend the day there. I just wish I didn't feel that way, but I'm not sure how not to.
The foods aren't my "holiday" favorite foods. When did Kilbasa and Sweet/Sour Cabbage become a part of Thanksgiving? Where are the homemade dinner rolls? Desserts are bought rather than baked?
They brag that their holiday food spread is monstrous, but it looks scarce to me (I come from a large family, so we always have a LOT of dishes.)
The traditions aren't my "holiday" traditions. Is sitting on the couch not talking and staring at the TV normal? Why are we not playing board games and card games? Why isn't anyone laughing and being silly? Why aren't the kids running around playing with each other?
I don't understand the stories or the connections. Heck, I can't even remember all their names. Honestly, it all seems...well...BORING.
Nothing about the process feels like a holiday to me. It feels forced. It feels put-on. I feel like an outcast...an outsider trying to be a part of something that I'm so obviously NOT a part of. I sit around...flipping through magazines, newspapers, and trying to make conversation with people who are obviously more shy and quiet than my own family gatherings. I'd much rather go hide in an empty room in the house by myself till the 'holiday' is over, and we can go home. I understand that this is a 'normal' holiday gathering for my husband, but to me it doesn't feel normal at all.
Will I always feel this way? Will I ever feel like this is a part of my holiday too? It's hard for me to imagine that my own future children's idea and experience of a holiday will be nothing like my own. My own children's holiday foods and traditions will be foreign to me...or will I be acclimated to it all by then?
I don't know. Maybe I'm just being selfish. I just don't feel like my husband feels that out of place when we spend holidays with my family, but maybe he just doesn't tell me that its odd to him. I feel like he fits in better with my family at our events. Whereas I just feel bored and uncomfortable at his events, and I am by no means a shy person. I can start a conversation with anyone, but the whole process at his events just feel forced. Spending time with them feels exhausting, and I have begun to dread it. I have to mentally build myself up to spend the day there. I just wish I didn't feel that way, but I'm not sure how not to.
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